There has been something that has been on my mind for quite a while and it has bothered me or just been in my mind for so long that think its time to just write it out. In friendships/ relationships, is there one party that does everything or is it suppose to be a partnership or a two way thing. Cos ive felt that in some situations that I’ve been in, I seem to be the one that initiates everything and while that doesn’t really bother me much, its just something that ive been trying to rationalize with? I mean as guys we should definitely initiate stuff in most situations however having to do it all the time with little or not much help from other party well kinda makes it harder to keep doing it. I was under the impression that even in friendships its important that everything is done together in that sense, building each other up and encouraging one another. When one party ends up doing pretty much everything, what exactly does that make it? Kinda makes everything unbalanced I think. It is because of this that I see the importance of communication and that one shouldn’t automatically take things for granted. Instead cherish what you do have rather than take people for granted.

Another thing that has been on my mind lately has to do with me as a person. I am quite far from being my ideal self and accept that however there are limits to my patience. I know for a fact that I have many flaws in my character and in the process of trying to figure them out and sort them out I found out new things about myself for one, if I stuff up, I will admit I’m wrong however something which perturbs me is the way in which I’m told off. There are two main ways of doing it I think. Objectively where you just point out what’s wrong and say how situation can be avoided. The other is talking down to me like I’m a kid and well basically being harsh unnecessarily. I THINK that the first option is most appreciated because basically the second one is just uncalled for. The fact I’m wrong shows that there is something which I’ve not dealt with which is fine but what is not is getting told off in a manner in front of others in a way that puts me down. That is not cool by me on any standards. If people have something to say to me, it would be nice to tell me by myself rather than tell me in front of other people that are not necessarily involved. The fact that if I’m in the wrong( which is quite a bit heh) is bad enough and will have to deal with it, and that would be nice if I didn’t have to deal with someone going ballistic on me.
And well honestly i am by no means perfect and i know i have shortfalls, so would appreciate my flaws being pointed out in an objective manner rather than harshly. To you, U have been a key part of my life for quite some time, thanks for putting up with all of my nonsense, and yea really appreciate you for all the inputs you have added to my life =) thanks