greetings to whoever still reads this.. have been dead quiet here first of exams and now becos its too boring with nothing to do i have decided to revive this pretty much dead blog.. well not tat i have anything better to do anyway.. miss spore so much cos here there's absolutely nothing to do unlike spore where is a city tat never sleeps.. counting months till i return and go wild(in a manner of speaking at least) ..
The prev posts was taken on sun , it was a fishing trip with me and my uncle from singapore. he was teachig me how to fish and the little thing in the bag is a small fish i caught but released cos was too small to be worth cooking.. oh well u win some u lose some.. and at a point in my stay where im a bit anxious cos firstly i may be moving to flat out by myself and secondly cos im not sure if i can make it to the 2nd sem .. the reasons are as follow's the papers were much harder than i expected so as prepared as i was.. somehow seemed a bit below standard.. so praying like mad tat will get thru and now have been looking arnd for place cos taking a 10 buck cab right when i want to go home at night is not veri fun.. not to mention cold standing waiting for it to arrive.. ah well other than tat same old same old trying to lose weight but dumb cold not making it any easier. option is when flat out since cant cook well prob end up eating less and will still lose weight only not by choice haha .. anyways will blog again soon when boredom strikes(which is prob tmr) later all
ApL(frozen in DnD)

haiz.. 4 down 2 to go.. exams i mean.. been so busy with papers haven blogged in a while.. anyways since 2 more to go gonna to have to go all out cos past few papers have been hard and lol a bit worried may not make it.. which will be sad considering realli wanna do well and get to uni.. holidays are coming up as well but for now have no idea wat to do am hoping to be able to travel and take some pics cos site a bit sparse now. wil input some pics from my class dinnner.. erm quite some time ago but haven had chance to post them.. here are a few
of them

sigh... today official marks the time left before exams to a week.. 7 days of all out mugging.. not fun but for desperation sake i gotta.. well for all those who think i didnt study.. i did just didnt memorise them well now its time to memorise them. cos for a few of my subj's i know generally wat its about hard part is to get into details which can be a bit hazy..Winter has set it and well only few days and im already missing spore heat and sun.. woke up tis morning freezing while wearing 3 layers of clothing..(ok fine fine they were quite thin layers)
gd thing is tat ive started studying in lib.. bad thing is i have transport probs cos stay a bit too far away.. anyways taking time to update blog before exam and hopefully will have time to update it again soon later
APL

Morning World.. anyways a new day to face new things.. from a fresh perspective(and a few hrs to slp on it) well honestly from a purely christian perspective.. i shld just take it and learn from it.. so as crappy as i feel and stuff i guess i will always be the dumb sucker who cares for others whether they appreciate it or not.. guess its in built in my dna.. just figured no matter how some treat u.. in the long run it;ll pay off.. anyways so off to farmers market then to choir then to badminton then to study grp then to dinner at aunts frens house.. wow quite a day if u ask me but at least can reflect on events that have occured lately.. Guys in singapore in CM.. miss u guys heaps

Ol' Reliable A-P-L

Haah.. after few days, finally decided time to update blog(yeah yeah andrew's getting slack.. must be the cold) its getting real cold here in dunedin.. but haha still no where near full on in winter... things getting busy as exams in less than a month.. started revision but lol its realli a lot to cover will be attempting to go full on for alll my subjects.. other than tat so far nothing realli fascinationg happening here other than mugging and trying to keep warm.. and lose weight but seems impossible as colder it gets more seem to eat to keep warm.. anyways pretty much settled here tried to get used to weather but easier said than done.. am hoping wont get to freeze cos as muc i wan to c snow i wan to survive to go home and enjoy xmas.. haven been able to add pics cos well have pretty much been stuck here.. and im not the sort of person who takes pics of myself and well i my opinion hah will never b.. rather be photographer than subject.. wil try to update more but hah since exams here have to actually put more work in so yeah bookworm andy coming soon
till next post peace out

whew thnx heaven its fri haha the weekend is upon us.bout time too almost dying in economics cos replacement teacher realli bites.. for some reason she seems to enjoy picking me to ask me stuff which i have no idea bout thnx to her "interesting " way of teaching.. hang in there... 1 more week b4 king of econs simon gets back then haha bye bye evil lady.. gives me more incentive not to attempt any more econs after tis.. well tat remains to be seen tho

other than tat week was quite ok with few interesting moments but overall it was tiring. am starting to get stressed cos exams are in bout a month.. so haha now panicking but frantically goin thru my work.. no more slacking arond time to work till wee hours of morning(as if i can survive anyway)
anyways since pretty much stuck in here maynot have many more pics to show but will post some of asean nite which was quite a big sucess and which i had part(albeit small) to play in .. good thing is im not in tat many photos and trust me its better for us all. u'll c why when i post pics

(bad hair day)...

Wil post again asap ..Ciao

hi these are some of the pics taken from my trip to fiordland enjoy ;)

sigh.. in case ur wondering wat im doin at home blogging on a sun morning cos i've come down with a cough and well i've been advised to stay home and keep germs to myself.. which would be a good cept for the fact that i have never missed church as far back as i can remember.. Even in Trinity if i was slightly sick i would still attend but well in this case not really up to me. Was encouraged to stay home.. so well no use trying to change anything. Prob listen to sermons online and listen to worship cd's as a substitute (even if it is a bad replacement). well easter brk is pretty much over and well time to start goin all out for studies . no more taking things easy i have a lot at stake and have no intention of messing it up. Hard to believe a week of rest has passed so fast. Gotta start getting ready for school and switch back to studyin mode. This term is much shorter than the first so there'll be a lot more at stake so for my sake better not screw it up. however something has come to my attention which i feel like posting.. well basically i have no idea who actually reads this but heck those that noe me know im a pretty average person who believes God and takes things pretty seriously. However since coming here i feel something has changed bout me. To be honest i have no idea what it is but i know something has changed and well still unsure if its for better or worse. Its not my core values that have changed cos i still take them veri seriously. But deep down.. i know something is diff and well have to find out what it is ASAP. all i know is that i dun feel as connected to TCC as i feel at Elim.. somehow in TCC everione seemed friendlier.. dun get me wrong pple in elim r friendly its just tat.. for me after service at TCC is time where can fellowship with frens but here in elim after service pple break into their smaller cliques and disappear so in the end im left standing like a blooming fool.. it could be just me but in the terms of hanging out with fellow believers this is one of the biggest things i miss about TCC.. but elim has its strong points for one the worship is good .. cell wise or lifegroup wise. well its all right tho still getting used to all guy all girl cell settings.(haha its gonna mess with my system when i return)
i still read the word and pray but still the whole setting here in dunedin i find highly strange and well even after being here for nearly 5 months still not as settled as i would like to be. ah well prob think and reflect bout it and will post thoughts here..

Hey to whoever reads tis
am currently packing for trip to fiordland aka milford sounds.. heard from frens scenery is nice so looking forward to trip.. hopefully it'll be a nice trip cos well its taken up good portion of my restful brk lol.. anyway here are some pics that i have taken recently

hi all just to update whoever reads this.. i am currently on easter brk(yeah no sch)
.. am currently basically lazing round but will goin on a trip on fiordland or milford sound on tues till thur . organised by Foundation Year so looking forward to it.
Reasonable good news is that so far in first sem i have managed to be quite well (in my opinion that is) i managed to get 7.7 GPA which to me is ok but not for long intend to hit 8 soon . so for now on brk but will start hitting the books soon.. wan to prove to myself that i can still study. Thnkfully had made quite a few frens here so lol have been quite busy past few nights but will prob stop soon to concentrate on studies more. That said i'll still go out but mayb not tat much cos my priority is to move on to uni so yeah full steam ahead .. but for now taking it ez cos have been quite busy past few weeks of sch
well here in nz surprisingly everything closes most of time on fri and sun. so on these days there're like no buses so transportation has been bad.
have had to walk 1 hr out from home a few times but well good exercise for me as feel myself gaining A BIT of weight.. but hah no excuse to get fat so prob help to burn off a bit
things have been quite ok adapting reasonably well but the weather is quite hard to predict so have had my share of freezing my rear off cos didnt think it would get cold suddenly..
miss family and frens in spore quite a bit cos well frens i make here are great but still miss everyone loads.. looking forward to return in 7 months.. anyway till next entry have a gr8 brk to al;l
ANdReW OuT

greetings to whoever reads my blog.. erm not sure if anyone does but yeah so far been quite a busy week cos had to prepare nz studies test and presentation.. other than tat FY has been ok .. had a class dinner with tutor . julie and well its was quite fun.. had bbq chix but for me its weird that didnt have much of appetite.. for those who know me well that happens really rarely.. anyways after tht headed to play pool with frens but ended up being thrashed 6-1 for some reason.. (too long haven played i guess) but it was a good time had fun time with frens.. and yeah so i feel it was a sucess .. other than tat did quite well for mid - sem tests other than maths which i really sux at. but yeah looking forward to trip to fiordland and will share ppics when can.. so other than tat things are goin well here miss everyone in spore lots.. will update soon
ANdrew

hi all.. hmm must be wondering why am im posting at 220 AM
well simple reason came back from frens birthday party and tho sad to say it i was bored out of my wits.. it was to celebrate my fren yusiof's bday that had passed on tues. on the whole gathering other than him i only knew 5 other pple from foundation. Rest of pple have never met before.. somehow i felt it was quite a quiet and uneventful evening and hopefully this wont happen again if not ill prob quit the whole b-day party thingy.. other than tat wk has been ok and so far managing ok as well in sch.. hope rest of weekend will be more interesting
ANDREW out

hard to believe have been away for 4 months already.. ah well pretty much settled into life here quiet and even more quiet.. miss singapore loads.. work is getting harder each wk and so busy and can get quite stressed not funny anymore.. other than tat things have been pretty good.. haven blogged much cos nothing much to rant and rave about haha as u can prob tell most of previous posts were loads of junk so they're pretty redundant after a while.. have some pics but have yet to upload them just yet.. gotta vet thru them first cos well i like taking pics of things and people but not of myself. anyhows.. for now thats bout it gotta prep for sch laterz

Ah ok. I can now say I’ve tried to use the new approach to my predicament and well surprise surprise it sucks bad.. Initially in theory it turned out quite well but somehow after more brainstorming.(ie time to think and reflect ps damn really have quite a lot of chances to do tat) realized tat it is not going to work and there is no point in me deluding myself otherwise.. There is only so much a person can do as a friend and beyond that it’ll just seem like nagging so I’ve come to a decision..
On another note I’ve noticed that once strong feelings for someone r birthed, there are two possible outcomes.. 1 is good the other is bad.. Good is that u can be there as a friend and hope the person makes the right decisions in general. Basically care for person etc.. blah blah blah sorta like nagging but as a friend.. The other which is commonly used by some is the somewhat cruel & harsh method of breaking contact , distancing self and in a nutshell leaving the person totally to live their own life with no interference whatsoever.
Of these two both are highly debatable and there are pro’s and con’s for both.. but there is no clear better choice.. The choices are both tough and thought somewhat hard on a person but sometimes when nothing can be done.. it does seem to be feasible.. Plus point for good option is that you can continue to be there as support for person if the need arises.. The bad point is that if things go bad.. you’ll be hurt as well cos of how close u are to person.. Plus point for bad outcome.. well basically nothing that happens to the person will phase u for the simple and logical reason.. it doesn’t matter to u anymore.. the choice has been made and well u have decided that no point in u continually getting hurt by what happens to fren. Bad point is well, .. erm.. haha up to this stage haven thought about the bad point of it yet so its still under works.
But the main thing of the choices u make is how your future friendship with the person will go on.. If good choice then you can be a close fren, confidant etc.. ps that means if fren goes thru hurt well so will u
If bad choice everything is gone.. so whether the person is happy, sad or whatever just doesn’t mean anything.. u have lost a friend fullstop
So the debate continues to go on which is more suitable for u?.
Can u bear to be on good terms with the person ie being happy with person, close friendship stuff like tat?
Or will u choose other path(not easier by a longshot) and just fade into the background and disappear from person ‘s sight
Two choices which have to made.. Which one will U choose..
I have no idea(for once) cos when faced with this situation.. I cant seem to decide. Which would mean more to me, my friendship with person or the peace of mind knowing that nothing the person can ever do will ever affect me again..
For once I leave the options there and hope the choice I make will be the right one
Nite

Hi there all who read or just stumbled across this blog by accident.. this is just the life of a erm.. mature student in uni of otago foundation yr..
Ah well work week is finally over .. and not a moment too soon.. we received news that we’ll have to sit for 2 test next wk acc’s and nz studies.. oh well all the life of students I guess. Anyways other than sch .. its been almost one week since.. incident happened and things are pretty much back to normal..
Now I view people a bit differently but not in a bad way.. just gotta be careful and watch how things happen.. misunderstandings have been cleared up and well most of life is back to normal.. guess for some people being frens only would be good for some pple and well reality is things change around us daily.. only thing tat I hope doesn’t change will be the friends u have.. for that reason I decided to bury the hatchet will person I was ranting and raving bout.. if u read wat I said then.. well stuff it cos im sick of way I’ve been handling stuff and its time for a change.. heck its not goin to be easy but since when is anything suppose to be ez. Frens are there when things are good and bad.. and most will last u when things get shitty.. so for tat im attempting to change the way I view stuff and hopefully it works this time… if for some reason it doesn’t work and I fall back to old ways. At least can say I’ve tried it and it didn’t work.. till then I will just be there as what I can or mostly as who I am.. heck may not make a bf but want to make a good friend.. this is my post for tonight.. quite mild but live with it if not ? beat it.

Hi HI all
ApL here will start blogging more often.. (even if i dun noe how many read it and seriously i dun really care cos most of u wont even noe me anyway..)
but heck writing is quite theraputic so wat the heck will give it a shot.
Sch today was pretty good..short but good.
and had my first lesson at jap class.. was interesting but if im to be serious bout it prob will take some work..
hmm.. other than tat next week had shitloads of work so prob will start doin them soon
hmm for now nothing else interesting but prob add some pics to give site more life

ah well back here again..to write another entry.. in case u have guessed for now.. i was pretty ticked out in previous post bout someone who was a liar and no good and all tat stuff
ah well my anger phase has ended and relatively sane self has taken control of body.. anger got tired and went home
so yeah im now pretty much calmed down and settled.. so well here goes. nothing much to think bout for my side cos basically all i previously wrote was written under influence of Anger.. and quite a bit of it too i must say.. i went ballistic and somewat philosphicall.. haha so rare cant even spell it.. anyways the brain has returned from desert and is now in control.. wat can i say Anger is something which i have quite a bit of(unfortunately.. damn) gd thing is tho it doesnt seem to last as long as i would like,, well cos i seem to never get angry most frens mayb not but my family sure knows bout it.. anyways basically things happen, pple change relationships flourish and bloom, only sane thing i said is tat no one can do anything bout it.. as true as tat is there can be a plus side to it.. wat it is i dunno and haven reached tat level of enlightenment to figure tat out.. anyways in nutshell pls pls dun folo anything i have said.. if u do i wont be responsible for wat happens.. i merely wrote tat under influence and anger if ur smart enuff to folo tat then good on u its merely to vent steam and to relax.. and talk crap
so in another nutshell.. ermm er.. haha tune in soon? lol

hahaha just when i tot things couldnt get any worse.. woo hoo they did..
think bout it this way.. how would u feel if someone u trusted and felt close to told u a lie and u just found out bout it?? well it could be to protect u so u may think.. i say its BUllShit.. A lie is a lie no matter how big,small major or not its a lie even if its to protect someone. so just imagine how would u deal with it.. give up? well to me its plain if the person could lie to u now.. wat makes u think they couldn't have done it in the past? how would u even know if everything tat they have said to u is the truth or just something they want to to hear. just when u tink u know someone shit like this comes out and makes u wonder. Certain pple can be trusted while others take a while.. but wat of those pple who pretend to be ur free and when u least expect it stab u in the back? how do u detect the truth from the lies.
for all u know someone can seem kind, nice cheerful? how much do u really know of the person.. heck for all u know they could be nasty , rude and other stuff i shall not mention.. how will u know?..
GOod news is u don't.. u have to take their word for it. And if im not wrong tats exactly wat they wan u to do .. wats to stop them for seeming nice at first then when u begin to open up, they treat u like crap.
I'll tell u ..nothing u or I can do can change much..
This realli is unlike me but i've come to a point where (sorry to all who noe me) Im really pissed off and tired of So called friends who seem to only last a while.. And when they're tired of u or u have amused them enuff discard u..

oh ya to note when u lie to protect someone from the truth.. it mayb alright to u but have u ever considered wat the person might feel? wouldnt they want to know and as a fren why r u covering up for them.. Wat seemingly may be a nice gesture can make things a whole lot worst and blow things out of proportion. And if tats not bad enuff wat does it say of ur frienship.. cant u even trust the person to handle it..
oh well getting tired of typing for now but yeah something happened to me(in case u haven already guessed)
and well wat im to do bout it haven tot bout it yet..
cos in nutshell when u have frens like this.. there are 2 things i can think of
1)hang in there as a fren and go for the ride wherever it may take u . i mean so wat if they do it to u again, frens must stick together in thick and in thin. who cares if u feel like shit be there as a fren and SOMEHOw things will work out.. or at least they're supposed to.in theory anyway
2) or my personal fav (which have done b4 and worked quite well in past)
chuck friendship back in persons face and basically tell person to stuff it(nicely of course). wats the point in tolerating someone's nonsense if they dun care bout u..
why be there for someone if its only goin to hurt u more and more if u near the person.. this method is not advised for all only hardcore nuts like me who seriously has been burned/had/pushed around and well somehow seem to attract this sort of crap.. i mean in the end who cares whether the person\persons life is goin well/bad watever.. save urself the prob and just cease to care.. sounds hard.. it is but heck i've done it few times and it has worked so far..
whew now realy tired of typing.. to those close friends and pple who know me sorry for offensive writing . to anyone else.. if u have encountered such pple heh if u wan to folo its up to u just dun bloody get cold feet in the end and backtrack cos if u do.. feel sorry for u cos shld have tried in first place if cant live with consequences
Out

2)

heh bit long winded today but tis has really been getting me thinking.. about the frens i have.. its not tat i dun like them or anything.. its just becos they are my frens it hurts me when i c them act the way they do.. plain and simple. i mean if normal pple i encounter randomly get drunk and act like fools, i wouldnt give a rats ass.. but when its someone i know and trust it makes it hard and painfull.. yeah watever call me a sap or weakling i dun give a shit bottom line i care for those around me a lot and be it watever choices they make i cant intervene but i do feel for them each and everytime they fall.. but the worst thing is tat i cant do jack shit bout tat.. cos i cant live their life for them but can only hope tat they make the right choices and if they dun .. well have to live with tat but personally i would rather be by their side than let them stuggle alone.. but hey i cant do miracles but i can be there.. my sudden inspirational thoughts takig shower at 1am haha lame but yeah tats me