hmm been a while since last post so quite a few things to say .. for now well i just finished 3 mid semester tests in a row and tat's as stressful as it gets cos day after u sit for one there's another etc for 3 days straight
only good thing is that i know i realli need to work harder cos was finding it hard to cope with some of the subjects. good news is that after speaking with the course advisor next sem i can switch to a BA in education= teaching.. its totally different from commerce which i found to realise ill be hopeless at. so for now just got to pass these papers to keep the credits..
the wk b4 tat was awesome as my parents were in NZ and had a great time in Wanaka and Te Anau.. Tat weekend as well i went for international service homegroup camp and whoa it was a blast.. i met so many new pple that now i cant use the reason that i dun noe anybody there as an excuse not to go..
met my share of interesting and nice pple which i most of the time dun get to see on sun cos most of them just come for international service on sat
anyways other than the above not much change else other than now i've managed to tone down a whole lot as i've realized that well.. im here to study not to go crazy and have fun .. in the process to find more bout God's Plan for my life which presently i have no inkling about..
other than tat my life is pretty average have good frens arnd and nice pple around me.. life is good
APL

haha in case anyone still reads this dead blog.. well im still alive.. by not much
so far wk 5 in uni and its not bed of roses.. math(finance) is killing me.. am realli questioning whether it was a good idea to do commerce.
well its too late to do phys ed or human nutrition but guess if need be there are other stuff which i can do .. i know marketing may nt have much math but honestly deep down dunno if i can market anything at all.. anyways
weather here is erratic as always..
these days my weeks revolve arnd
mon- tkd
tues- musos
wed- tkd
thur-free for now
fri-lifegrp
weekends still not so bad..
sat have time of fellowship with relatives
sun service( boo yeah) n catch up if possible
socially wise well sorta slowed down since last year
no more parties, drinking etc
suppose its better for me but leaves me with more time ..
somehow life in uni is diff from fy
harder to make frens cos rarely c same grp of pple
tho still c foundy frens.. most are still cool but now tat out of foundy hard to get in touch with others
oh well guess tats the price of moving on..
will try to blog more.. with extra time haha
laters
APL

hehe after 3- 4 months of not blogging im back..
finally moved into my new spacious place and recently have added internet access to it..
will now be able to update blog more often .. mayb hehe
1st wk of uni has passed and well as excited as i was for it to start i have been thinking whether studying commerce is right for me because the reality is that i have a more intense interest in physical education instead but am not sure if would be possible to study it at university level.
O'week has passed and thankfully i have spent my days at home resting and chilling rather than goin out
as the new semester begins i hope to get into a solid routine which will help me keep focused and yet have fun at the same time as well.
will update more soon..
Ciao~
APL

hehe haven updated in mucho long time haha
ive been back in SG since 18 nov and wat have i done.. basically stayed at home cos had to have minor surgery at tan tock seng hospital.. recovery is uber slow and doc said to rest and home so have been homebound since.. prob look for job once i get better other than tat family is fine and enjoying their company . on a good note ive stopped drinking and have basically mellowed down quite a bit.
about time too. awaiting results for FY and praying hard can pass cos i felt it didnt go as well as i expected , anyways other than tat missed quite a few of my frens already.. shout out to Comm A best class ive been in period miss u guys heaps and will need to meet up next year to catch up. so far managed to keep in contact with some of the guys. hmm most of girls dun use msn so tat a bit hard but anyways
time fortunately has been my fren in one particular case.. i have been home for about 2 wks... this time away from nz has i think and hope slowly mellowed some feelings i had for someone who i tot i was close to.. dun ask its just one of those things tat was bound to happen i just didnt want it to. as time passes am sure i would be fine once most of feelings hav died id be back to norm (again i hope this happens). Having fun with my church frens , new pple in and just chilling with those who i consider close to me. this is somethin which i have been waiting for the whole year and now its feels great will update more since haha am stuck at home
APL out for today hAhAAHA

finally just got home to SG and since have quite some time to reflect, time to recap the year in general,
lifestyle wise in dunedin its quiet ... real quiet
studies wise.. for a 2 yr break its not too bad.. hopefully can pass and get into uni if not dang back to drawing board for rnd 2 if it happens
frens wise in dunedin i made many close frens and many ill be proud to call my frens...
relationships wise.. start of year was bad middle was getting worse 3/4 way haha much worse and now.. wat do u think would i be able to get something good from it? haha nice try answers is as predicted .. crap
ah well at least everything has been layed on the table and the choice was made.. as much as i wasnt surprise.. dunno why still felt a glimmer of hope in tat situation..
tat's wat happens , as much as u know something.. it is different when its told to u point blank..
good time to move on APL..
dunno why u bothered to stick arnd to get urself into more hurt but hey im one of those dense one who still believes the impossible until it slaps u in the face..
it shldnt bother me cos i said i didnt care but in a odd and twisted way i do..
But hey im a gentleman bout it and the better man won.. all's fair in love and war as they say..hmm came bak last night and just tonight got into arguement with folks..
as usual i was in the wrong but i was too stubborn to know when to call my bluff.. i guess i will never be able know when to just leave it and shut up and when to fight one..
they were prob rite bt heh so much for trying to be in control of some assets.. watever i've made do in NZ due to my decisions and this aint goin to change much
looks like realli got to work
relationship wise, haha im like a train wreck waiting to happen , the more u wait the longer u realise nothing is goin to show.. oh well cant change tat part of me much but hey u never know till u try
will i apologise prob but not anytime soon..
budget wise heh dun have much say in tat so too bad..

ah 1 wk of study break left then finals.. am panicking quite badly now but well im trying my best and i hope tat its enuff .. in my time here ive made my fair share of close frens and interesting acquaintances. I would realli love to be back next year and hope my rusty brain wont fail me now when i need it the most.. looking back on the frens ive made thus far i can safely say im proud of them.. most of them anyways haha have my share of buddies and circle of those i trust .. and well cant just end of without having my share of well erm.. dunno if they can be called crushes cos im like a bit too mature to have crushes.. haha i wish. all i can say is tat im pretty sure ive moved on cos well feelings if left dead will end up tat way.. or at least that is wat im hoping for soon..
for all those who r hoping ill reveal names etc.. .......... can keep dreaming cos that aint goin to happen anytime soon ..
Friends.. cant live without them .. would be a miserable excuse of a person if didnt have any ,. which is an improvement considering how the past few years ive had like few frens no thnx to my previous experience which i finished in NOV 11 2005.
Just a thought.. do friends actually mean pple who u can remain close to for a long time or pple who under different circumstances would not ever care if u existed.. seriously i have no idea and i hope tat the pple im close to regard me as frens feel the same way i do..
ive gotten to know quite a few pple well and i hope that we'll still be able to be close cos well honestly the start was rough cos i was like err.. more senior than most of them( actually all of them but saying it to make myself feel better and/or console myself that im like a relic compared to most of them hahaha) but thankfully i was able to mingle around and integrate myself into Commerce A which so happens to be the best Class in FY.. and now it feels like everyone is family or close to it..
which is why im concerned that just because we were a tight group in FY would it mean that we'll still be close or as time passes past , we'll drift apart in our own cliches.. ? Bit out of topic cos i would actually need to pass in order to feel that but it still would be the same..
The frens i have made here ,FY DCMFY Elim.. will always be in my heart
Only hope that as time passes, we'll get closer and not drift apart..
To those who i can regard as frens and bro's (sis's dun have dunno why LOL)
i salute u for making this a great year for me..
Look forward to passing and being back next yr(off to pray and mug )
ps mug=study like no day no night

sigh. a month till exams trying to go hard out but lol have a lot of stuff to cover, anyways spring is here and its a bit warmer tho weather still erratic. spending any other available time in lib trying to cram work in.. so far quite ok closer to time not so sure.. time also drawing near to go home to SG. about time too.. getting sick of food here real bad.. cant wait for mum and grand parents cookng.. gotta hang in there for a bit longer.. *break over* back to study.. sad life eh

ah .. its been so long since i last blogged. last time was just to put up pics.. cant recall when i last wrote anything,. life has been crazy, 1 month to exams.. last wk was on break but had 2 essays to do 2 tests to study for and tons of math homework. just handed in 1 essay today and just finished other one( i think). got to start on math hmework and revision soon.. anyways so far i have been ok celebrated my bday last wed and dang it was nice.. not one of my usual birthdays tats for sure Comm A kicks ASS... anyways sigh sad most time i blog is when things are rough but haha this is no exception. have a nice classmate who i help her with work and stuff and i was like eh her characteristics quite pleasant.. and just when i intend to ask her out just found out sat she got a BF few days earlier.. and that just sux so bad.. talk bout lousy with ladies, cant realli get any worse than tat .. other than tat trying not to think bout it too much cos exams coming and hopefully when go back will pretty much forget bout it.. hmm trying to do so now .. not as ez as i tot.. anyways back to books later all
(shout out to anyone left reading this)

hi all these pics were taken last fri.. background had a 2 hr brk and so couple of frens(in picture) decided to go to st clairs. drove there enjoyed scenery i took following pics then went back for class. weather was great.. scenery was too but just went wanted to get pic of seagulls camera batt died so no pic of those birds oh well.. at least managed to take there pics

hi after a long hiatus here are the much awaited pics

ah well its been quite some time since i've been here in dunedin and i decided to sit down and recap how my life has
changed since coming here.. and well sad to say it hasnt been as fruitful as i had hoped. when i say this its not the results or studying cause that aspect has been great.. the problem is how i have developed as a person. things that i have looked down upon and distanced myself from have somehow changed me. and i dun mean for the better
I guess its time andrew lincoln wakes up and realises what has happened..for one my walk with the Lord has sort of stagnated and well im not as involved in church as i used to be back home. On the one hand as close i try to get to God, somehow things will come and blow it off course.. this is not something to be proud of and am battling to try to restore the balance. On the whole as i'm getting to meet more people and develop frenships.. i have seen many kinds of pple here in uni.. the whole student drinking culture is too real for comfort. pple u dun normally speak to will become good frens and well it is somewhat unsettling.. it seems drinking is the few ways of meeting people as absurd as it sounds.. here to pple drinking and smoking complement each other for some weird reason.. relationships wise.. well still same ol.. sux at it so not much change there.. only thing that i wanna bring up is that its true the more u spend time with someone the more attached u feel to the person.. and well in my case it sux big time. somehow things have ways of not working out the way u wan so haha have to deal with the reprecussions. and u'll be surprised how when u spend time with someone many things about them u'll be willing to overlook. from little things to big things somehow pple get drawn in and by the time they realise it , it will be too late and have to deal with the heartache that will follow.. moral of the story watch urself well and for crying out loud open ur eyes when dealing with others. cos i for one didnt and well long story short.. ended up trying to go after someone who back in singapore i wouldnt give a second glance.. but hey its all part of learning.. only exception to this is if pple change but who are u to know if and when they'll change.. recovery process is slow but getting there.. oh yeah back to topic.. altho i think as time passed i feel my values haven changed much certain things have been 'accepted' as the norm here but i guess its time i make a stand and lay my foot down on these. I'll try to walk back into the path set for me by the big man upstairs and hopefully if all goes well when i get back ill become a better person. apl's serious blog over...:)

its finally thursday.. can feel weekend upon me.. gd time to.. been given so many assignments its not funny.. have gotten some pics from ski trip to queenstown from some frens(mine not saved onto usb just yet so have to wait while longer while i figure out how to do so frm my cam. sch wise has been like i said tough and busy but its still better than staying home wonder wat to do. been spending some time studying with frens at hostel so its been good.. room wise still messy but liveable.. haven cooked proper meal since moving in and well looking at the kitchen doubt i ever will at least here anyway.
frens wise still quite good but lol if only life was tat simple where everything is so peaceful.. haha oh well.. no one ever said life is smooth..
one of my close frens recently got hooked up and well i am supposed to feel happy for person but well opposite is tru.. feel glad for them bt at same time feel like crap for watever reason.. now dilemma is whether to just be there and stay silent or just mind my own biz and left it drift away( i dun exactly mean drinking myself silly altho tat is tempting haha..
cos wat i am sure is that looking at things are now.. frenship will never go anywhere cos generally one pple get attached they seem to drift away from frens.. so contemplating speeding the process since i wont lose much cept mayb herfrenship which one looking back has been well ok.. more time to contemplate this aspect of life and well tis is part tat sux.. next post will be of pics from trip from frens
enjoy

ah.. sigh back to sch tmr.. just got back from ski trip to queenstown and it was a blast had a great time took some nice shots and just hung out with my classmates and frens much more so it was all good will try to upload pics onto site soon. now the tough part comes, which is to crank up the engine to get back into study groove once again.. other than tat 2nd sem has been more intensive work wise and starting to get back on right track.. relationships wise.. still sux in tat dept.. but guess in order to set myself back on track and carry on with life, drastic times call for drastic measures.. wat do i mean? still working on tis aspect cos as much i as dun wan to resort to wat i had to do in spore.. the situatiion may call for it to be done one last time,, stil in the dark? oh well just my way of dealing with relationship probs no big deal.. ah yeah where was i.. have quite a few assignments and presentations due so have started to work on them now so that closer to time i wont be so stressed.. for now cant think of anymore to write about so ill leave more time for inspiration to come.. Cheers for now
APl

An so the day has once again passed in the 2nd last week of the mid semester break.. brings bittersweet thoughts as even though classes will resume soon after finding out my results which were less than satisfactory but were sufficient to keep me here whew.. the reality sets in that i have a lot of ground to cover .. as such will have to get back into the gear of studying even in the final week of the break. to top it off.. this is my second day in my 'new' flat and well even tho i get my space.. to be honest i still have a funny feeling bout this place.. a bit late but its not horrible enuff to regret just yet but other than its price and location, thats all the benefits it has actually the rest are just quirks which hopefully can be resolved asap. altho i save the money from taking a cab home. somehow still find it weird i just pray and hope this feeling will go away.. im ok with staying by myself its just that the accommodation now gives a veri diff vibe which i am and will be wary of. doesnt help this place doesnt have net so actually wrote this blog on wordpad before using uni internet to send it to blog.. sad 5 mths+ without internet at finger tips will be rough tats for sure.. less i stay at com lab but now too soon to say.. ill be honest im worried because given the circumstances i really hope to be able to survive here cos as optimistic i am presently well i have doubts just cant put finger on it
there are points i will miss staying with my aunt and well cons there are .. helped shape decision making process a bit
well in a surprising new feature bout me.. my walk with GOd has had it tough points here.. somehow church integration to elim isnt goin as smooth as i hoped and well up to now still bit shaky in it.. friend wise here have made many good friends and close frens .. altho journey has been interesting with diff characters.. whilst i had more frens in church in SG here most of frens are not from my church,, so i have a vast variety of pple who are quite diff to me in many aspects but have been able to adapt well here . In another bold move on my part to open up.. area of BGR in my life has been well less than ideal as well.. when i first came had a crush but didnt last cos of well overwhelming differences haha.. good thing it blew over reasonably fast.. now well there is someone interesting i know but well basically she's everything that i didnt expect i would fall for in a person.. however given present situation friendship is all we are and well would prob keep it this way for the time being as well , as much as i find her intruiging and mysterious, i have realised that things maynot be all they seem and so now am just taking it slow and observing to see what the future brings.. if things go well, which i hope they do then things may get interesting .However if nothing improves well if being friends is all we can be then its good enough for me. I have made the mistake of revealing feelings i have had for pple in the past and so far haha all have blown back in my face so now am goin to try and be wiser to sit tight. If the chance comes along great if not well that is life. I would rather she not hear it from me and make things awkward as friends cos i will not jeapordise this friendship because of my revelation. So even if she gets attached to someone else.. it wont realli phase me. my only concern and prayer is that she'll be happy and be with a guy of reasonable character and not end up with some jerk and end up getting hurt as eventhough these are beyond my control.. i wouldnt want it to happen to her let alone anyone else i noe.. as u can c this is a weird thing to say but for now its all i am feeling .who is this mystery gal? haha wouldnt u like to noe.. if it is meant to be u'll know if not then well some times are just left unexplained .
haha realise this is realli un-Andrew like but guess in my journey to become a better person this time of reflecting is sort of necessary and well sharing with family/frens is something which i want to do.. even if someone else comes along at least they can read this tragic/ or not interesting blog .. ah well getting late and shld be getting some slp night so tats all for blog on sun 9 jul 3am nz time..
AnDreW

greetings to whoever still reads this.. have been dead quiet here first of exams and now becos its too boring with nothing to do i have decided to revive this pretty much dead blog.. well not tat i have anything better to do anyway.. miss spore so much cos here there's absolutely nothing to do unlike spore where is a city tat never sleeps.. counting months till i return and go wild(in a manner of speaking at least) ..
The prev posts was taken on sun , it was a fishing trip with me and my uncle from singapore. he was teachig me how to fish and the little thing in the bag is a small fish i caught but released cos was too small to be worth cooking.. oh well u win some u lose some.. and at a point in my stay where im a bit anxious cos firstly i may be moving to flat out by myself and secondly cos im not sure if i can make it to the 2nd sem .. the reasons are as follow's the papers were much harder than i expected so as prepared as i was.. somehow seemed a bit below standard.. so praying like mad tat will get thru and now have been looking arnd for place cos taking a 10 buck cab right when i want to go home at night is not veri fun.. not to mention cold standing waiting for it to arrive.. ah well other than tat same old same old trying to lose weight but dumb cold not making it any easier. option is when flat out since cant cook well prob end up eating less and will still lose weight only not by choice haha .. anyways will blog again soon when boredom strikes(which is prob tmr) later all
ApL(frozen in DnD)

haiz.. 4 down 2 to go.. exams i mean.. been so busy with papers haven blogged in a while.. anyways since 2 more to go gonna to have to go all out cos past few papers have been hard and lol a bit worried may not make it.. which will be sad considering realli wanna do well and get to uni.. holidays are coming up as well but for now have no idea wat to do am hoping to be able to travel and take some pics cos site a bit sparse now. wil input some pics from my class dinnner.. erm quite some time ago but haven had chance to post them.. here are a few
of them