ah well its been quite some time since i've been here in dunedin and i decided to sit down and recap how my life has
changed since coming here.. and well sad to say it hasnt been as fruitful as i had hoped. when i say this its not the results or studying cause that aspect has been great.. the problem is how i have developed as a person. things that i have looked down upon and distanced myself from have somehow changed me. and i dun mean for the better
I guess its time andrew lincoln wakes up and realises what has happened..for one my walk with the Lord has sort of stagnated and well im not as involved in church as i used to be back home. On the one hand as close i try to get to God, somehow things will come and blow it off course.. this is not something to be proud of and am battling to try to restore the balance. On the whole as i'm getting to meet more people and develop frenships.. i have seen many kinds of pple here in uni.. the whole student drinking culture is too real for comfort. pple u dun normally speak to will become good frens and well it is somewhat unsettling.. it seems drinking is the few ways of meeting people as absurd as it sounds.. here to pple drinking and smoking complement each other for some weird reason.. relationships wise.. well still same ol.. sux at it so not much change there.. only thing that i wanna bring up is that its true the more u spend time with someone the more attached u feel to the person.. and well in my case it sux big time. somehow things have ways of not working out the way u wan so haha have to deal with the reprecussions. and u'll be surprised how when u spend time with someone many things about them u'll be willing to overlook. from little things to big things somehow pple get drawn in and by the time they realise it , it will be too late and have to deal with the heartache that will follow.. moral of the story watch urself well and for crying out loud open ur eyes when dealing with others. cos i for one didnt and well long story short.. ended up trying to go after someone who back in singapore i wouldnt give a second glance.. but hey its all part of learning.. only exception to this is if pple change but who are u to know if and when they'll change.. recovery process is slow but getting there.. oh yeah back to topic.. altho i think as time passed i feel my values haven changed much certain things have been 'accepted' as the norm here but i guess its time i make a stand and lay my foot down on these. I'll try to walk back into the path set for me by the big man upstairs and hopefully if all goes well when i get back ill become a better person. apl's serious blog over...:)