bleah. 2nd week of uni back and well.. kinda glad have things to do to occupy time now.. things getting bz at uni with assignments and stuff coming up. last sem in uni for deg.. scary thought. God willing i can clear everything then my scary journey called life begins. and if worrying bout uni is not hard enough as it is, i kinda stuffed up something which meant and kinda still means heaps to me.
recently few days back i was confronted with a decision to talk to a fren about a particular topic. and being suddenly confronted by it, i initially thought it was a good idea to clarify stuff.. which in normal circumstances is good but in mine.. totally ruined in my view.. the frenship. since having the talk, i have been treated differently from this otherwise close fren of mine. It has come to a point where, even when im with her, i struggle to talk because of the tension in the air. In other cases it would be better to talk things thru but in this case, all it did was cost me the friendship.. which in this case. i cant even begin to explain. So in a mere week?, everything changed and the person i thought i knew, apparently i dun anymore. Is there a silver lining in this? heh if there is i cant find it and well.. i guess this happens in life and well gonna have to deal with it somehow.
Keep replaying in my mind the situation and if i had just shut up, all this would have been avoided..
I wish i had just shut up
APL.. =(