lets see.. where do i begin
this is like 5th week of being a 3rd year uni BA student and.. well I kinda have lot more time than i expected.. which is good and bad depends on how u look at it. i kinda have more freedom to do work at my own pace.. which well i guess is good.. in a way. I kinda miss having more classes, like in foundation having same classmates cos my papers are so random that i rarely see people for long.. sigh

have few assignments due before mid sem break so trying to cram them out asap
church wise.. am enjoying my ministry and still growing in it, am grooming up new leaders to take over/assist with service so thats good. worship is something which i can continually do and not get tired of.. so tats awesome .camp is coming up and am so excited for tat and yet.. something has been on my mind for a while and tats kinda main reason why im posting on this.

I've known X for quite a while now..but somehow never got to know her that well until this year.
the more i get to know and interact with her the more i feel comfortable around her and stuff.. The thing is she's pretty, smart and alot of fun to be around, whilst i'm average.. not too intelligent and i hope i;m fun to be around haha.
The thing is that I'm tired of just having one sided crushes cos heh i know too well wat its like for things to go south really fast. The only thing i can do now is well i haven the foggiest idea because she is like (yea sounds cliche but too bad) the ideal person that i had in mind. The only thing is I have no idea how she feels because prob dun dare ask her or I think i can guess the answer.
Its just annoying how someone so seeming perfect is there but u cant quite do anything about it .
Only thing i can do now is pray that either a) a situation arises where i can do something about it or b) which is my least fav.. watch as her life unfolds and I can kick myself in the butt for not doing anything. sigh.. I know i should just wait for God to send the ideal person it.. and i really hope its someone like X.. cos aiya.. dunno la
for now.. all i can do is wait and pray.. sigh