hmm now that exams over.. can restart long forgotten hobby of blogging..
quite sure no one follows this blog anymore so can write as much as i wish.
sigh really hope can pass upcoming exams cos hope to graduate soon haha
need to pray hard that God opens the door so can stay here.. if not have to go back to sG which would rather stay here a while more.. my heart is still with dunedin
unfortunately while my heart remains here.. part of me will be lost come next year.. a dear fren may be moving away to get a job elsewhere and that is something which i am so not looking forward to . I've known her for quite some time and shes someone i can be myself around. Just silly ol' APL
just being able to open up and share my thoughts and life with her has been one of the greatest things that have happened in my life and come next year when she leaves.. part of me will be going away and .. as much as i dun wan that to happen.. if its God will she moves, haha who am i to say anything about it.
which brings me to my dilemma.. this 3 weeks will be a time where i need to sit down and pray my heart out for things that i see as important. Job, PR , location these are some of things on my agenda..
These things are some of the things i have to surrender to God and let his will be done.. Who am i to insist on doing things my way. The creator of heaven and earth will surely know what hes doing much better than i do haha
while i am growing older, I continue to believe that God has the ideal woman out there for me..
I need to train myself to be the godly leader,man that I have been called to be.
Just hard at times.. doing life, with no one to share my heart out totally to. Which is why by her leaving, I would have lost someone who i greatly care about. While we will be seperated by a vast distance, i pray that the friendship will still last because.. well she means that much to me..
heh.. not bad 1st post in a while and u get emo APL..
heh so free now.. this is best thing to do to clear head heh
APL