yea!! one paper down 3 to go ..
all 3 in 5 days .. haha starts next thur..
paper on a sat.. cant get any better heck yea it can
its andrew lincoln we're talking bout here of course it will get worse
long story short b4 these papers.. got figuratively shot, stabbed, struck with a sledgehammer against a brick wall.. all within 24 hrs
love story of my life so far
keep story short.. was a nice person was iinterested in and well things go well..
then i did something stupid like txt too much
then next thing i know im showing too much attention to her.. i give up ay
this is why im single at 24.. cos i seem to be anti- relationship
anything i seek, ends up getting furthur away..
oh well crap happens.. life goes on and no time to mope exam in 6 days and need all the time i can get.. God if ur listening I really need your help now.. Plz

heh 9 days to exams.. or till 1st paper which hopefully will have 40/70 for internals
hopefully that shld be ok then have a few days to mug for the big 3.. one of which i already have 51.5% of so tats already a pass haha
the other 2 i have have 70% weightage for finals so argh need to go hard out
other than studying for ages in CAL serving has been awesome these few weeks with so many awesome things happening during worship aye.
so need to seek God when i go back to be able to flow and worship the way am supposed to ..
bit sad wont get to see many of my dear friends graduate this yr.. hopefully will try and spend time with them before i head back to SG
On a personal note haha i was praying for direction on a particular situation and to my surprise i actually got sort of an answer to my question only a few minutes later. i mean ya answer wasnt wat i was expecting but it shows that God does listen to prayers. altho what u get may not be wat u expect to hear. other than tat hoping to finish papers so can sort of my leaving this yr flat and preparing to head home.. hang on peeps in SG APL is coming home.. albeit with a bit more weight since busted knee wasnt able to exercise much,, no worries more of APL to love hahahahaha
APL out

man so fast and its end sept.. in couple of weeks nov... then year end
time passes so fast this sem.. seems like only yesterday had to endure first phil lect now have to prepare for exam on it.. oh well
past 2 weeks have been tied down with so many assignments its crazy no wonder not many pple want to do arts.. so many essays and assignments to do .. oh well might as well stick in it and graduate then do something else haha
but guess prob have to start mugging like mad once all assignments are done which should be this week latest..
ministry wise things are going well.. passion for worship got reignited at counted 07 hehe
cant wait to get back into it..
personal stuff haha.. not much new haha ( i know thats why ur reading this blog wahhaa)
or at this stage cos well.. i dunno wat steps to take now.. cos well in past ive never had progress in any relationships and well in this aspect im as new to it as anyone else
at this point just praying hard and seeking guidance.. cos i dun wan to ruin it by rushing or anything so haha will relax and see how things progress..
tats all im saying so there hahaha

well so much for ol' Andrew trick cant seem to get it to work anymore, guess im prob growing up.. it was childish of me to think of tat as a solution to my prob.. guess i'm finally maturing or at least i hope so lol
interestingly enuff i have a fren who shared some stuff with me and some others recently, it was sort of like a testimony of sorts but then again it could have just been his feelings at the time.
In a nutshell the scary thing was that wat he was going thru was pretty much exactly what i had been going thru last yr. the whole partying aspect and drinking aspect was a part of my life back then and it was a norm for me ever so often. it seemed to be fun at the time but as time passed emptiness began to creep in.. heh after a while i just lived that lifestyle devoid of any purpose and was desperate to get out of it but i was kinda drawn in quite a bit cos most if not all my FY friends were doing it. As a result half of my income was spent on alcohol and other assorted vices; ps not drugs tats just wrong stuff .
but it was only after i got back home and spoke to my dad about it was i able to see past all the 'glamour' of it and realized that the emptiness i felt would never be satisfied by partying or alcohol, rathers it's my walk with God and the close christian friends which would see me through this stage of my life and alcohol will never be able to fill that void.
I mean its not easy for sure i have fallen once or twice back to it but thankfully with God's hand in my life, the road has been manageable and thanx to the awesome pple around me, i'm able to stay on course and live a more meaningful life.

hehe mid week in this break of holidays and can say it has gone pretty well so far.. been trying to update on readings and lectures notes but man weather has been pretty good so far except for today other days had nice sunshine. heh last night was interesting cos i sorta panicked after realizing that my intention for going to missions was wrong and well was on the verge of having a major breakdown crisis but thankfully managed to speak to two of my frens one here and one back home in SG so that sort of helped get me back on track. cos was quite bad because my motive for going for missions well was sort of gd/baddish
cos for one i really wanted to go and help other was tat 2 of my frens were goin.
now that one may/is not goin i dunno whether im going for them or for myself..
advice given was to seek God and there my answer will be ..
which sounds valid enuff..
weirder thing is that how can i base my actions on others, i should live my life my way( GOd's way but thru me of course hehe just tot shld add that in )
so at this point trip is i dunno still gotta seek answers and guidance from those close to me.
with regards to " other problems" that arise.. guess have to do and 'ol' andrew trick and buzz off from hehe..

hmm what has been happening.. well its mid semester brk so 1 week to fully concentrate on studying which it wat i shld be doing and am trying to but then again with so much time my dreaded foe has returned.. deep thinking sigh.. whenever i have too much time on my hands this always seem to happen. heh busier i am less likely to bother but this seems to be the trend at this stage. well for one have heaps of readings to do so that shld take up most of time but then again there are its odd moments of self reflection. For anyone who even reads this well , relationships wise haha after so many years being around ,.. haha i'm still quite hopeless at it.. just when i tot i was able to move on again.. something else came in my way.. and now haha that also seems to have a dead end.. so much for finding someone at this stage of my life haha..
Hope its not a sign that ill remain a single guy for rest of my life cos well track record doesnt seem to good at this stage. church wise im having a blast so many pple around that i haven actually had much time to spend with but nonetheless everyone is awesome.. a bit sad that next year many will be gone tho. lifegrp so far is awesome haven had in depth sharing for quite a while so tat aspect is quite refreshing. TAWG wise bit stagnant but trying to improve tat aspect learnt quite a bit last night from night church on how to read and understand the bible which was for me quite useful. hehe
other than tat looking forward to heading home at end of yr and well still trying to figure out how to prepare self for missions trip next year.. so far in a nutshell this has been wats goin on in the life of APL
outz

hehe been a while since last entry
in this time, have had holidays and been up to not much interesting other than badminton and staying over at frens hse whilst getting snowed in
other than tat trying to find stuff to do in winters hard as not tat much job available
and the best part the anti -relationship magnet (ie me) has struck again
however this time hehe i will avoid damage unlike last mishap which lasted me a year.. or thereabouts
or at least try to..
rather than staying and getting closer to the person and get hurt the most when someone else catches her fancy, ill prob do wat ive done before and well has worked for me thus far.. ie RUNNNN!!!!
but honestly cant think of a better way of resolving prob.
ie if theres no hope in it ever goin anywhere, two options, friend which basically means happy for the person no matter wat it is ie getting new bf etc
or errr no generic name for it.. which means u conviniently drift away until their existence means little or naught to u
the right thing to do is to remain or fren route, the usual thing i choose is drift which has worked pretty well thus far.. the thing is would it cost me the frenship
well YA
but then again if it saves u the heartache of being around when she's with another guy
hmm seems quite dummy proof to me haha
oh wells
back to life of a wandering single i guess
sigh..

time has passed so fast just when i had to get used to uni life, its already almost the end of a sem
well not quite but have 4 wks to exams.. am so not liking bcom cos maths really bad so when doin finance topics am dying. so much so will prob drop it as dun wan to fail any subj and risk devalueing my degree. ya it will cost a quite a sum but i find compared to the long term benefits this would wake me up pretty gd which it has..
Life this yr has been more tame compared to last yr
i have stopped goin out with frens and well basically living a more normal(ie boring life)
but its fine cos now i have better things to fill my time with (ie church stuff)
tho im not as active when i was back in CM im still trying to help out in ways tat i can
im also doing TKD tho do not profess to be tat good in it
i suppose in a way i do miss my ol lifestyle but realise its for the better as now i have more impt things to concentrate on other than studies of course
haha the "interesting" subj well i still am hopeless at
i guess one reason why i tried the student lifestyle was to try and fit in which i did but i realise for the wrong reasons
so now im left to be myself .. which haha i admit is not particularly interesting
tho i try .. realli hard hehe
frens wise totally mixing with frens for last yr FY
in terms of tutorial mates well dun relli talk to them much no particular reason why tho
'nice people' there are a few but well after being burned a bit in the past trying to think bout it too much and bother goin after cos if i learnt from experience by the time u actually r interested in someone things can swing either ways gd or realli bad
id rather just be myself(not hard) and let God bring someone to my life. basically there are nice girls arnd me its just tat i dun wan to rush things for any reason but just to have mingle and have fun in process
anyways this shld do for now till next post
Cheerio
APL

hmm been a while since last post so quite a few things to say .. for now well i just finished 3 mid semester tests in a row and tat's as stressful as it gets cos day after u sit for one there's another etc for 3 days straight
only good thing is that i know i realli need to work harder cos was finding it hard to cope with some of the subjects. good news is that after speaking with the course advisor next sem i can switch to a BA in education= teaching.. its totally different from commerce which i found to realise ill be hopeless at. so for now just got to pass these papers to keep the credits..
the wk b4 tat was awesome as my parents were in NZ and had a great time in Wanaka and Te Anau.. Tat weekend as well i went for international service homegroup camp and whoa it was a blast.. i met so many new pple that now i cant use the reason that i dun noe anybody there as an excuse not to go..
met my share of interesting and nice pple which i most of the time dun get to see on sun cos most of them just come for international service on sat
anyways other than the above not much change else other than now i've managed to tone down a whole lot as i've realized that well.. im here to study not to go crazy and have fun .. in the process to find more bout God's Plan for my life which presently i have no inkling about..
other than tat my life is pretty average have good frens arnd and nice pple around me.. life is good
APL

haha in case anyone still reads this dead blog.. well im still alive.. by not much
so far wk 5 in uni and its not bed of roses.. math(finance) is killing me.. am realli questioning whether it was a good idea to do commerce.
well its too late to do phys ed or human nutrition but guess if need be there are other stuff which i can do .. i know marketing may nt have much math but honestly deep down dunno if i can market anything at all.. anyways
weather here is erratic as always..
these days my weeks revolve arnd
mon- tkd
tues- musos
wed- tkd
thur-free for now
fri-lifegrp
weekends still not so bad..
sat have time of fellowship with relatives
sun service( boo yeah) n catch up if possible
socially wise well sorta slowed down since last year
no more parties, drinking etc
suppose its better for me but leaves me with more time ..
somehow life in uni is diff from fy
harder to make frens cos rarely c same grp of pple
tho still c foundy frens.. most are still cool but now tat out of foundy hard to get in touch with others
oh well guess tats the price of moving on..
will try to blog more.. with extra time haha
laters
APL

hehe after 3- 4 months of not blogging im back..
finally moved into my new spacious place and recently have added internet access to it..
will now be able to update blog more often .. mayb hehe
1st wk of uni has passed and well as excited as i was for it to start i have been thinking whether studying commerce is right for me because the reality is that i have a more intense interest in physical education instead but am not sure if would be possible to study it at university level.
O'week has passed and thankfully i have spent my days at home resting and chilling rather than goin out
as the new semester begins i hope to get into a solid routine which will help me keep focused and yet have fun at the same time as well.
will update more soon..
Ciao~
APL