Saturday, April 22, 2006

sigh.. in case ur wondering wat im doin at home blogging on a sun morning cos i've come down with a cough and well i've been advised to stay home and keep germs to myself.. which would be a good cept for the fact that i have never missed church as far back as i can remember.. Even in Trinity if i was slightly sick i would still attend but well in this case not really up to me. Was encouraged to stay home.. so well no use trying to change anything. Prob listen to sermons online and listen to worship cd's as a substitute (even if it is a bad replacement). well easter brk is pretty much over and well time to start goin all out for studies . no more taking things easy i have a lot at stake and have no intention of messing it up. Hard to believe a week of rest has passed so fast. Gotta start getting ready for school and switch back to studyin mode. This term is much shorter than the first so there'll be a lot more at stake so for my sake better not screw it up. however something has come to my attention which i feel like posting.. well basically i have no idea who actually reads this but heck those that noe me know im a pretty average person who believes God and takes things pretty seriously. However since coming here i feel something has changed bout me. To be honest i have no idea what it is but i know something has changed and well still unsure if its for better or worse. Its not my core values that have changed cos i still take them veri seriously. But deep down.. i know something is diff and well have to find out what it is ASAP. all i know is that i dun feel as connected to TCC as i feel at Elim.. somehow in TCC everione seemed friendlier.. dun get me wrong pple in elim r friendly its just tat.. for me after service at TCC is time where can fellowship with frens but here in elim after service pple break into their smaller cliques and disappear so in the end im left standing like a blooming fool.. it could be just me but in the terms of hanging out with fellow believers this is one of the biggest things i miss about TCC.. but elim has its strong points for one the worship is good .. cell wise or lifegroup wise. well its all right tho still getting used to all guy all girl cell settings.(haha its gonna mess with my system when i return)
i still read the word and pray but still the whole setting here in dunedin i find highly strange and well even after being here for nearly 5 months still not as settled as i would like to be. ah well prob think and reflect bout it and will post thoughts here..

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